Shuffle and swat away the gusts of whisper The murmur somewhere between sleep states The accusations from your birth place

Robbed of all disguise, reality confronts you No form, no sound. Only noise-- The muffle breaks open Like rising above water Into a growing, tuning clarity and once The effect settles in It's already too late

You cannot unhear its message The moment of realisation That oh shit evening special The lowered moment Disclosure

A mistake closes in distance What throws you How much intensity until you collapse!

It meant everything to us. And you've blown it all on weapons. And drugs. Spraying infertility Til the streams turned toxic Til the algae purged their insides out Into spillwaters and in the drought even the blood evaporated from the dry earth Salt from scattered sweat Hardened into the rock A flavour you could still taste in the meat Grating your healing wounds like bedrock into sand I'm through with this Washing your hands Letting go of the patterns which lead you Here.

Next week we'll start again, For there's a chance it's not too late I must forgive my own mistakes Riding through this unsettled memory Of a life I never lived in this body I project inward To the changing climates Of all that comes to be.

Who are we? What on earth will redemption cost me?